Jesse J broke down in tears on stage while performing an intimate party in Los Angeles on Wednesday, hours after she announced she had a miscarriage.
After a third examination on Tuesday, doctors told the grieving 33-year-old singer that they could no longer feel her heartbeat.
During her party at the hotel cafe, Jesse said she “never felt lonely” after losing her first child.
BREAKING: Jesse J broke down in tears on stage while performing an intimate party in Los Angeles on Wednesday, hours after she announced she had a miscarriage.
“I decided to have a baby on my own and by a miracle it worked for a while, and yesterday was amazing,” Jesse said as she spoke to the audience.
This year has been the hardest year I’ve ever had.
In December of last year I lost my hearing, I was diagnosed with Miniris. Then I lost my voice which was terrible. Then I lost my baby. I know I’ll be fine because there’s really nothing else to choose in the way I live.
“I’ve never felt more lonely than I did last week.”
Grief: After her third check-up earlier this week, doctors told the grieving singer, 33, that they could no longer feel the heartbeat.
‘I’m Everywhere’: During her party at The Hotel Cafe, Jesse said she ‘never felt lonely’ after losing her first child
Devastating: The singer took to Instagram Wednesday night to reveal that she was told she had tragically lost her unborn child after undergoing her third screening.
Back in 2014, Jesse revealed that she “never could” have children naturally. On stage at the time, she said: “Four years ago I was told I couldn’t have children at all.
“I am not telling you guys sympathy because I am one of the millions of women and men who have gone through this and will go through this.”
Jesse took to the stage within hours of announcing her miscarriage and told fans “I’m all over the place” as she opened the two-hour party.
Tragic: Addressing the audience, Jesse tearfully said, “I decided to have a baby on my own and by some miracle it worked for a while and yesterday it was f***** gs**t”
Herting: “I’ve never felt more lonely than I’ve felt this past week,” Herting said.
Struggling: The singer was bundled into a black coat at the start of the performance because she told the audience that she felt insecure about how bloated she was
‘Good evening everyone. I’ll play some music to make it more emotional,”
Please be with me tonight, read the room. Everyone in this room is human and we are all going through something in life right now.
“Forgive me, I’m everywhere in my life and I’m not going to pretend I’m not, the price tag may sound sadder than usual but I’ll do my best.
I’m in the midst of this moment and that’s why I’m here because there’s nothing in life that helps me understand myself more than this.
I had no idea how it would feel like for a balancing night. My heart feels like I’m running, but I’m not.
Honest: Forgive me, I’m everywhere in my life and I won’t pretend I’m not, the price tag may sound sadder than usual but I’ll do it ****** better’
Hurt: “I’m in the midst of this moment and that’s why I’m here because there’s nothing in life that helps me understand myself more than this,” the singer added.
Wearing a brave face: Jesse used her sense of humor to get her past the group
“I’m feeling a little sore,” Jesse added, before telling the audience that she felt insecure because she was “bloated” as she took off her plush coat.
Earlier in the day, Jesse told her followers that she “has decided to have a baby on her own,” after revealing in October that she and seven-month-old boyfriend Max Pham have split.
The grieving singer said she was “still in shock” but decided to perform in Los Angeles later on Wednesday night “because singing will help me.”
Sharing Her Pain: The singer struggled to sing songs while wrestling with her emotions
A whirlwind of emotion: The grieving singer said she was “still in shock” but decided to perform in Los Angeles later Wednesday night “because singing will help me.”
Fertility difficulties: In 2014, Jesse revealed that she “never could” have children naturally. She said on stage at the time: ‘I was told four years ago that I could never have children’
Along with a photo of her taking a pregnancy test, Jesse wrote: “Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying ‘Seriously though I’m going to continue working in L.A. tomorrow night without telling all the audience I’m pregnant.'”
“By noon yesterday, I was dreading the idea of getting through the party without falling apart…
After the scan was done for the third time and I was told that there was no longer a heartbeat. This morning. I feel like I have no control over my feelings. I might regret posting this. Maybe I can’t. I actually do not know.
Strong: She said, “I lost my baby.” I know I’ll be fine because there’s really nothing else to choose in my way of living.”
Single life: Jesse told her followers that she ‘decided to have a baby on my own’, after revealing in October that she and boyfriend Max Pham split up after seven months of dating
And she continued, ‘I decided to have a child on my own. Because it’s all I ever wanted and life is short. Pregnancy was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will live again.
I am still in shock, sadness is overwhelming. But I know I’m strong, and I know I’ll be fine.
I also know that millions of women around the world have felt this pain and it has become much worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t know.
It’s the most lonely feeling in the world. So I’ll see you tonight, Los Angeles.
“I might make fewer jokes but my heart would be in the room.”
Sweet: Jesse received a hug backstage after her performance
Excellent: The singer wore a brave face while performing for the audience